Wednesday, August 4, 2010


I ended up spending an extra week at my mom's with the baby, and have taken some time here at home to just chill and an not worry about blogging or anything else, but I'll try to get back into the swing of things this week.

I am doing a lot better with the depression, and feeling better overall. I have had some trouble with anxiety, but it's better than it was for the most part. I'm having problems with panic attacks and major anxiety with driving now (since I was in a bad wreck a while back, I've had this off and on), but most days I don't really have to drive anywhere, so it's manageable. Id would be nice to get out of the house more, but I'll work on that as it comes - besides, I'd probably go shopping anyway and that's the last thing I need to be doing.

I followed up with my doctor, and he did recommend going back on meds, but said that he thought I'd be ok without them if I felt like I would. The main issue is breastfeeding - my supply dropped some while I was away from home, because he was getting more bottles and nursing less than normal, but I'm still working on getting it back up, and don't want to cut it short because of medications. For now, I have a prescription for something I can take as needed, and then wait for it to get out of my system before I nurse (it's a low enough dose he said there shouldn't be any transfer to my milk, but I'd rather be extra safe).

I slacked off on the running and exercise for a while, so I probably won't do the tri I wanted to, but I'll do one in either winter or spring instead. It's been really hot and I haven't been sleeping much at night, so it's got my whole schedule mixed up and was making me feel like crud (blackouts again & dizziness, but was skimping on sleep and skipping meals, so no big surprise). I'm trying to get more rest now, and working on eating more normal again, so I'll work in more running & biking once I feel a little better. I also need to join a pool or fitness center to work on my swimming, but the only one with childcare around here is $50 a month (over twice per year what the rec center charges), and I hate to spend that if I end up not going because of the whole driving thing.

I'm still working on the house. For a while, I just didn't feel like I could handle anything, so nothing really got done. I went through the cabinets and got rid of a bunch of old extra dishes and coffee cups and got my dish cabinets organized. I probably need to go through the tupperware and stuff again and match everything up, but other than that and sorting the pantry (moving older stuff to the front & checking the dates), the kitchen is good to go. I have two more boxes of clothes to go to Goodwill, as well. I've been putting off going through the clothes I'd set aside to keep, but there's really too much of it, so I'll probably try to cut back to about half of it as well. Since I'm not working, I don't need all the business clothes I had, and I'm sure there are others who could use that kind of thing cheap. Besides, if I keep up the running and all, I'll probably be a few sizes smaller when I go back to work, and need new clothes anyway.

The baby's doing great. He's growing like a weed, sleeping through the night and into the morning, but staying awake most of the day. He's scooting around and rolling, so we really have to watch him now, and we took the mattress off the bed frame, because I was afraid he'd roll off in the morning (he'd already pushed the "bumper" pillow off once after my husband got up for work, so now that side's against the wall and there's no edge to roll off). He's teething, so he's been a little fussy at times, but the chamomile drops & amber teething necklace are working great. He's also learned to stick out his tongue, which is just funny.


  1. So glad you're back and okay! Keep taking care of yourself. Lots of love to you!

  2. Thanks, I think just having a break from the daily sameness, and some help with the baby where I could have a little me time without worrying or feeling guilty about it helped immensely.


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